Oh No I Think I Am Gay – Coming Out Books

Sheena is joined by Tara Scott today to talk about coming out stories in the second part of this two-part podcast series called “Oh no I think I am Gay”. This two-part podcast series takes us through 8 books about different types of coming out but each one special in its own way.

This is part 2 of 2

 

Sheena’s Picks

The Amnesia Project by Barbara Winkes

Publisher Indie Author

Narrator TJ Richards

Synopsis

Romantic suspense with a dystopian twist…

What happened behind these doors?

In the summer of 2003, three young women and a teenage girl take a trip to New York City. Only three of them return….

Paige’s disappearance makes deep incisions in the women’s lives, impacting friendships, relationships, and careers. Joy retreats. Paige’s older sister, Alice, seeks solace in alcohol. Dani vows to leave no stone unturned, feeling guilty and conflicted after 17-year-old Paige revealed her crush to her shortly before she vanished.

More than a decade later, Dani uncovers the shocking truth.

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Substitute For Love by Karin Kallmaker

Publisher Bella Books

Synopsis

A deep kiss and a single rule. Like most women in dead-end relationships, Holly Markham was used to finding substitutes for love. Like chocolate. 

Fun times with good friends. Throwing herself into her work. But throwing herself into the arms of a leather-clad stranger was never on her list. 

When Holly’s best friend Tori takes her to a dance for lesbians only, she realizes that Tori is gently trying to push her out of the closet. While it was true that Holly had been trying to come to terms with her growing attraction toward women, no one expected Holly to take one look at the mysterious Reyna and fall hopelessly in lust. 

Unable to resist the purely physical appeal of Reyna’s sensuous demands, Holly quickly succumbs to Reyna’s delicious seduction. After a night of delirious passion, Reyna gives Holly a long kiss and single rule: Call whenever you want me to make love to you. There can be nothing else. Although sexually fulfilled for the first time in her life, Holly soon realizes that pleasure without emotion is no substitute for love – a love she knows she and Reyna could share. 

Knowing too well the high cost of living in shadows and denial, Holly risks everything and sets out to pierce the deep shroud of mystery surrounding the woman she has come to love.

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The Covert Captain: Or, A Marriage Of Equals by Jeannelle M. Ferreira

Publisher Indie Author

Narrator Violet Dixon

Synopsis

Nathaniel Fleming, veteran of Waterloo, falls in love with his Major’s spinster sister, Harriet. But Nathaniel is not what he seems, and before the wedding, the truth will come out….

Eleanor Charlotte Fleming, forgotten daughter of a minor baronet, stakes her life on a deception and -makes her name – if not her fortune – on the battlefield. 

Her war at an end, she returns to England as Captain Nathaniel Fleming and wants nothing more than peace, quiet, and the company of horses. Instead, Captain Fleming meets Harriet. Harriet has averted the calamity of matrimony for a decade, cares little for the cut of her gowns, and is really rather clever. Falling in love is not a turn of the cards either of them expected.  

Harriet accepts Captain Fleming, but will she accept Eleanor? Along the way, there are ballrooms, stillrooms, mollyhouses, society intrigue, and sundering circumstance.

 

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Damage Control by Jae

Publisher Ylva Publishing

Synopsis

An actress practically since birth, Grace Durand has finally made it in Hollywood. When a photo of her in a seeming compromising situation with another woman is plastered all over the tabloids, she fears for her career as a lead in romantic movies.

Desperate for a publicist who’ll convince America that she’s straight, Grace hires Lauren Pearce, one of Hollywood’s leading PR agents, not knowing that she’s a lesbian.

Lauren has dealt with PR nightmares for years, so doing damage control for one more rich, spoiled client shouldn’t be a problem—or so she thinks. But the more time she spends with Grace, the more she realizes how different she is from her television persona.

Getting involved with her client is not in her game plan, especially since it would confirm the rumors and ruin Grace’s career, but the attraction between them is growing as they run the gauntlet of the paparazzi together.

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Transcript for today’s show

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hi there I’m Sheena and this is the Lesbian Review review podcast the podcast is a spin-off of the popular review website the Lesbian Review.com where we review the best books movies and music with leading lesbians bi or queer woman the goal of this podcast is to bring you closer to the best queer media and give you access to interviews with people who are behind the scenes in creating it welcome to part two of eight coming-out stories we love I’m joined today by the fabulous Tara Scott who is who is joining me to talk about oh no I think I’m gay stories Tara thank you for joining me hello so the oh no I think I’m gay stories or stories where it’s dangerous to come out so this could be dystopian stories there’s political reasons or historical stories there’s there’s some sort of reason that it’s not a great idea to come out so it could also be either you could be this owned you lose your fan base you lose your money you lose your career so the oh no I think I’m gay is coming out stories with consequences which is very different from part one which was oh wow I think I’m gay which is just coming out stories way it’s the journey of coming up so why do you think it’s important that we still talking about stories we’re coming out actually has consequences this is where I’m thinking on my feet very well no that’s not true well if you just think about the world there are literally countries in which people are dying for being thought of this game yes definitely ah sorry I’m trying to think through this and I’m an introvert so thinking out loud is not one of my strong suits I don’t see a lot of those romances although I wonder if Sharon Munir did that with her book which takes place in India but I suppose given that there is a lack of that people in those kinds of countries have to rely on these stories whether it is about you know in dystopian settings or historical or whatever to get that experience that reflects their own it’s not a one-for-one it’s not like an exact translation of their experience but it still might be similar enough that they can feel seen when they read sparks I also think that historically we’ve had such a tough time it’s only been relatively recently that a large chunk of the world has made it even legal for us to be alive and to marry people who we love I’ve been reading the Bebo Brinker series recently which is it’s a lesbian pulp series that an Bandhan wrote in the 1950s and 60s and it’s very interesting because it’s kind of like a little time capsule of what it was like for gays and lesbians well and some bisexual people in in that time period and it was meant to be this like ephemeral almost like throwaway fiction and because it was meant to be thrown away she was able to make it very real rather than have to like be careful because censorship or whatever and that wasn’t that long ago and to be reading about like the threat of police raids in bars and corrective rape and like all these things some of which don’t happen anymore but some of them do we’re very privileged for the work that our elders put in to get some of the the legal accommodations that we have it’s not perfect even in the US and Canada or where you live like it’s not it’s not like homophobia has magically gone away entirely but it’s a hell of a lot better than it was and then it is in many countries legally at least yes but books yes let’s talk about books okay my very first pick is the amnesia project by Barbara winks she published it herself and there’s an audiobook version narrated by TJ Richards so here’s the synopsis romantic suspense for the dystopian twist what happened behind these doors in the summer of 2003 three young woman and a teenage girl take a trip to New York City only three of them return pages disappearance makes deep incisions in the man’s lives impacting friendships relationships and careers joy retreats pages all the sister Ellis seeks solace in alcohol Danny vows to leave no stone unturned feeling guilty and conflicted off the seventeen-year-old page revealed her crash to her shortly before she vanished more than a decade later Denny uncovers the shocking truth so Danny becomes a cop you see Danny’s investigation as she’s desperately trying to find her friend’s missing sister the synopsis is not super clear but basically three young woman went to New York City for like a fun weekend and they had to take the younger sister with the younger sister Paige then Paige disappears like on the street literally one day they’re walking some way and she just disappears and Danny spends her life trying to find Paige and it’s this crazy dystopian type of story it is a romantic suspense for sure and what happened is mind-blowing yeah I don’t know what to make of this cuz I’m a big baby and I don’t know if this is a book I’m gonna love her if we’re gonna hate it will blow your mind it’s a great read though it’s really good all right I feel like I can’t really ask you anything though about the coming out elements cuz it sounds like it’ll blow it all like ruin the twist it will ruin the twist like why did you okay maybe I’ll say this why did you choose this one as a must-read coming-out story because everything in this book is against them being gay okay so since the title of this podcast is oh no I’m gay alright fair enough alright so what’s your first pick ooh I like your first pick I know I know my first pick is the covert captain by Jenelle and Ferrara and the official blurb is actually not too bad so I’m gonna read it Nathaniel Fleming veteran of Waterloo falls in love with his major spinster sister Harriet but Nathaniel is not what he seems and before the wedding the truth was out Eleanor Charlotte Fleming forgotten daughter of a minor baronet’s takes her life on a deception and makes her name if not her fortune on the battlefield her worid and n she returns to England as captain Nathaniel Fleming and wants nothing more than peace quiet in the company of horses instead captain Fleming meets Harriet Harriet has averted the calamity of matrimony for a decade cares little for the cut of her gowns and is really rather clever falling in love is not a turn of the cards either of them expected Harriet accepts captain Fleming but will she accept Eleanor along the way there are ballrooms still rooms Molly houses society intrigue in sundering circumstance this book is so good oh it’s so good so Nathaniel is pretending to be a man yes actually a woman Ben yes but she has been in battle and earned all sorts of kudos for like her awesome Waring stuff and so even though she’s she’s not from a well-to-do family she’s brought into this wealthy home of major whoever a country remember the majors name made you give it right we she meets Harriet the system Harriet never expected to actually is married so the the two of them have the most delightful chemistry and it’s this kind of like they become friends first sort of thing which was so cute but the thing is if Nathaniel is discovered if Nathaniel comes out then her life is completely ruined oh absolutely like she is only on a half pay salary as a Waterloo vet and she kind of needs to be able to live with the major if she wants to be able to be around horses and I don’t know have enough food for proper meals and all of those things so there is kind of that like it’s fine while they’re friends but then the closer they become and the more they fall in love the more the threat ramps because it’s her whole way of life that’s threatened absolutely but she starts feeling these things for Harriet and Harriet starts filling these things in the majors throat because he couldn’t think of a better match for his sister mm-hmm and so there’s all these forces conspiring to utter but it’s so lovely and it has some really kind of hilarious moments and the language is highly immersive so it does kind of feel like you’re back there in that time yes I find it a lot easier to listen to the audiobook then to read this because of the language but listening to it was great it was a fantastic audiobook I haven’t listened to it but I’m glad to hear that yeah that’s kind of just just go read it just get this book it’s really sweet and it’s often on sale like I don’t know read it and throw it a review you’re listening to the lesbian talk show the lesbians or choke on your hub of podcast information all right so my next choice is substitute for love by Karen Comerica published by Bella books this book is actually a bit older I’m going to read you the synopsis I wrote because I don’t like the synopsis that’s is on Amazon substitutes for love by Karen homemaker is the story of Holly and Rayna this is one of the slightly older cool maker novels but it is without a doubt one of my favorites you see I love a good dilemma I adore characters who are wounded or trapped by circumstances and Cormega delivers this in spades with this angst driven story fueled by passion and pain Holly’s and I did in relationship with an older guy he’s always correcting her and taking time to do his yoga while she cooks and cleans for him one evening Holly’s friend takes it to a woman only dance where she meets Rayna and the mutual attraction is immediate this mysterious strangers to his passion in her that no one else has ever been able to do and the two woman leave together and go to a motel after their night together Rayna leaves Holly with this call me whenever you want me to make love to you they can be nothing else Holly doesn’t understand that ultimatum but can’t stop herself and ends up meeting with Rayna again the two women are caught in a whirlwind of forbidden romance that threatens to break rain has carefully constructed world for Rayna being closeted is a life-or-death choice and when her feelings for Holly threatened to end her life of quiet suffering she has to make some really tough choices and it’s call maker so it’s a really well constructed story so the first chunk of the book is from Holly’s point of view only so you actually don’t know what’s going on with Rayna she’s this mysterious character there were literally times when I said to Holly in my head or maybe even out loud Holly go find somebody who can actually give you what Rayna can’t give you and isn’t willing to give you and then when you read rain a story your heart just explodes because you’re like oh my gosh she can’t come out and now what but it’s cool maker it’s a romance it does have a happy ever after but it does have all the angst and all the amazing stuff that comes with coming out and it’s still relevant today I want to read this one so bad I’ve read a lot of hers but I haven’t read that one yet and when I saw that you chose it I went and write about I was like oh I need to push it on my list it’s so good Tara it’s so good okay so what’s your your last one okay my last pick is damage control by Jay which I love so much that I put it on my top ten list for 2015 I think it might be part of the reason why I was like we need to do a top 10 list for the year I can’t remember but what I do remember is loving this book and reading it a bunch of times and I am going to read my synopsis for this one grey strand is the rom-com queen with the perfect marriage to her action movie star husband Nick except the world doesn’t know that she and Nick are divorcing and with a new movie set to release soon with Grace’s first dramatic role there couldn’t be a worse time for the tabloids to say that she’s having a lesbian affair with her best friend Jill Grace’s mother and manager hires publicist Lauren Pierce to convince America that grace couldn’t be straighter not knowing that Lauren herself is an out lesbian but Lauren is professional conscientious and incredibly good at her job and quickly proves she’s the right person keep Grace’s image exactly what it needs to be Lauren knows never to mix business and pleasure but the more she gets to know grace the more she realizes she’s not a spoiled princess and can’t seem to stop the growing friendship and those feelings of attraction not a problem since grace is totally straight right except she’s not cuz she definitely falls for Lauren and they are my favorite J couple ever cuz they’re so freaking cute but the threat in this case is that Lauren could in theory lose her career if the public doesn’t like it so again remember this came out in 2015 even in the last four years we’ve come really far with representation in Hollywood I still don’t know that rom-com queen though would come out now it probably wouldn’t happen and so there is kind of that threat there and it doesn’t help that her mom is there to constantly tell her how you can’t let people think this is the thing and so there’s there’s like the element of her career but there’s a family element involved to where it doesn’t feel safe to come out and it’s a really slow burn because she also thinks she’s straight at the beginning as well so there is that coming out to herself before determining whether she’s going to come out to the world and what that can mean and having to deal with like all kinds of confusing feelings and her husband’s not a dick like he’s alright too and it’s just a really solid lovely romance like if you if you like celebrity romances or haven’t read this yet I don’t know why because you really should have and if you like coming out stories especially celebrity coming out stories like and playing the role herself like this rate one that’s up there with that okay that’s great I think those are four solid choices for our theme of oh no I think I’m gay and and I think that’s great and if you haven’t listened to our first part of this because this is a two-part podcast which was wow I think I’m gay then mosey on back a couple of weeks and listen to that because they in that when we give you four other recommendations so this is part two which is why you get eight coming out stories it’s four in each pot Tara thank you so much for joining me today we can people find you and your awesome self oh you can find me and my awesome self also podcasting on the lesbian talk show channel with the show let’s do books so if you like author interviews come check me out there every other week reviewing at the lesbian review lambda literary smart bitches trashy books all the less Vic you can handle you can find reviews there and you can also come find me on Twitter at Tara m.d. Scott and I will give you book wrecks and I am tweeting every day links to previous reviews so if you think there’s still a book you haven’t found out about yet that’s a good way to find them and we have reviewed over a thousand books on the lesbian review so I’m guaranteeing you this books you have not read and a chunk of those a huge chunk of those is Tara’s reviews so start with these four because these are excellent books and then you can mosey on over and find even more if there’s one thing we are sure to do its overwhelm you with so many books you will never ever whatever book to read never and if there’s like any particular like do you like friends to Lover’s we got a tag for that do you like small-town romances we’ve got a tag for that do you like thrillers there’s definitely a tag for that yep we got lots and lots and lots of tags [Music] this has been the Lesbian Review podcast you can find this and other awesome shows by switching for the lesbian talk show anyway you get your podcasts we’re even on Spotify now find by links to the books we spoke about in the show notes and if you enjoyed this podcast and want to see us creating more awesome content then consider becoming a patron not only does this mean we can keep on doing what we’re doing but you get exclusive podcasts that do not appear on the main channel you can find out all about it on patreon.com slash the lesbian talk show the link is also in the show notes that’s all for this episode bye bye Tara bye Gina